Love vs Lust

Yep, that's right.
i'm currently writing blogs about both of the above.
I am finally beginning to understand the real meaning of each of those words, and not the meanings that they have today either!
Stay tuned

Scared

For the first time in almost 11 years,
I am scared.

And not the scared you get when someone surprises you, or the feeling you have after you've watched a scary movie.

not of losing someone or something, not of the bogeyman, or the closet monster either.

not even of death....

quite the opposite really.



I'm scared of life.

for as much as I have gone through in my life already, and the things that I've done.

nothing scares me more at this point in time then the thought of living out my life.

I know God has a plan for me and everything.

and I want what He has for me.

but I am scared.

and I dunno what to do about it either.



living life one day at a time.

Just things...

Where to begin?

I dunno, sometimes I know where to start, this just isn't one of those times I guess.

why do I get so caught up in the things of this world?
I mean something comes up and I dunno?
sometimes it's all about things, maybe not all the time like stuff that you can buy but other things, like maybe thoughts or even my actions sometimes.... Why do I do the things I do not wish to do and why don't I do the things I wish to do (paraphrase)

sometimes I can't stop my mind from going off on it's little tangents.
thoughts that I shouldn't be thinking and thoughts that I shouldn't be worrying about so much over (things like what on earth will I be doing this year and will I find that one person that God has for me or will God show me that He wants me to be single.)

I put to much on the "I" part of it, it's hard not to worry but I know I shouldn't, cause if I let it, it'll tear me up pretty bad.

I should let God take care of it.
I already Know that He has, but getting into that mind set sometimes is a little hard to do. (and I wish it wasn't)

...uff-da :)